On the road to Self: Finding Clarity in a World of Mixed Signals
One day, I was “ driving” through the chaos of my confused mind, and suddenly, I found myself inspired by the road signals we see every day.
It struck me. Life, I’ve come to realize, is just like a long road trip. Doing Life is US navigating through roads, full of signs - some that warn us, some that guide us, and others that simply leave us puzzled. Some signals steer us towards safety, whispering: “Hey, slow down here,” or “Hello you, keep going”. Some signals can be confusing and overwhelming, making us question: Are we on the right path? Or are we stuck in negative life patterns?
I’ve often felt overwhelmed and defeated by the human elements in my life. As someone who deeply values human connections, it’s natural for me to stay engaged and vulnerable with others. And just like on the road, some signals come from family, friends, lovers and even strangers — through their words or actions. Some people help guide us, lift us up, show us the way forward. Others leave us confused, or even derail us.
Over time, I’ve been learning to interpret these signals, recognizing who helps me stay on track and who might lead me astray. This project, the signs, the colors, is my way of mapping my mental landscape. It’s about noticing the signals that tell us to keep going, to stop and reflect, or to take a different turn. Life is a road, and every encounter, whether helpful or confusing, is part of our journey of learning. Sometimes, the best thing we can do is slow down, listen to our inner voice, and trust that we’ll reach where we are meant to be.
Today, I aspire to be the kind of person who, like a helpful road sign, uplifts those around me when they’re down. I hope to be a guiding light, reminding others to slow down, pause, or keep going when the road gets tough. Ultimately, we are all traveling through life’s twists and turns, and a little encouragement can make all the difference for all of us
xoxo
And… I am still a work in progress
A world of Grey
Throughout my youth and into adulthood, I was told that the world is “black” or “white.” But soon, I realized that this is not the truth. We are all just shades of grey - very much imperfect, real, and human. On this journey to discover ourselves, we strive to be where we want to be.
Not long ago, I was grouped into boxes of blacks and whites.
My blacks have been stained with whites,
My whites stained with blacks.
And I cannot accept this world
Because it’s Grey.
Who will own up and identify with me?
I’ve stopped expecting anyone to.
Drown me today, if you must
For I never asked to be awakened.
How did I get involved in Art?
Burnout? Toxic Humans?
During a busy period in my career, I experienced what many might call, a burnout. This was a period of exhaustion for me, driven by intense competition and toxicity amongst fellow humans at the expense of personal well-being.
In the midst of this, I found myself losing touch with who I truly was.
At a junction of struggle, I saw it as an invitation to reconnect with myself. I picked up a paint brush mid-term, just to try something different . This simple act opened a door I hadn’t realized that it was waiting for me.
The art piece above - Vivid Awakening, was my first art piece. Sometimes, it is indeed through a quiet act of doing something different, that we find our own Awakening, its been close to 2 years now since I began my art journey
What began as an experiment evolved into a burning passion. I explored different mediums, attended some workshops, and connected with others who also found strength in creativity. Each piece helped me see that challenges, even those rooted in a hustling corporate culture, can lead to personal growth and authentic expression.
Today, art is my refuge, a way to find balance amidst the hustle of the corporate world. It’s an ongoing journey of self-discovery, a space where I can celebrate imperfection, embrace vulnerability, and reconnect with who I truly am.
Through my art, I have learnt to reclaim my happiness and stand confidently in a world that often emphasizes endless productivity. Each piece reminds me that true fulfillment comes from staying authentic and nurturing the parts of myself that bring joy and meaning
And… I dont want to lose myself again